Hey, Your flowers?

 I didn't say you shouldn't have a plan. The issue is you've been worrying all along. Yea, you're trying to figure out everything (tooooooooo muccchhhhh). It's taking a toll on you but you don't see it anyways. You act like.....

Oh, I didn't mean to say all of that. I actually wanted to say "How are you?" 

I've actually been on this piece for quite some time, I decided to drop this today since I did same last year (Trying to keep up with the 'same day, same time, next year, don't touch that dial' thingy😂) and you know consistency is quay, sorry I meant "key".

These past months has been a roller coaster, but then again, God's goodness has been a constant. Pfft, We're in the 4th month already, Day 91 precisely (Time flies). Happy New Month, by the way

For me, I've been so particulate about my 24 hours and it's seeming not to be enough. Trying to "squeeze" all I have to do under 24hours so they don't alter other plans scheduled for the next 24 hours(call me an expert at condensation reactions😂), dangerous to-do lists everyday, Biochemistry after my life, having to do junks so I don't spend so much time cooking, putting sturvvvvvs in place, trying to create balance (did I say create balance? or trying to attain perfection).

You know that thing of telling other people to take care of themselves and how you're rooting for them and how anxiety doesn't pay, that self care should be a priority and then you forget to put yourself in the equation too (Maybe, you didn't forget, it was probably unconscious). Adept at advising others and beating yourself up when you are alone with you. All of a sudden, there's no "slack" to cut. Worrying begins to guise as "making plans", sleepless night now equates hard work. You become so bound in the natural. You said "things" will fall in place, but you don't let "things" fall, you actually fit "things" in yourself and even adjust "things" if your fitting isn't looking perfect, loosing sight of God's love but your eyes are open (very wide open), not seeing that God actually cares about you and he's involved and interested in the whole process. Hey! You got this because He got you.

So, here it is. Your flowers? Yea, I'm giving you your flowers.

Truth is, you're actually trying. you're working your As off, you're making moves, you care about your growth, you're making gains, you're striving, you are getting better, you should pat yourself on your back for that, you're doing well.

Anyways, we never get to know the "you" that is addressed in a piece of writing. In the meantime, take care of you❤️ 

~ Signed, Management

The Francis Bethel ❤️